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1月11日 The struggles, the tough times - Documentation of job hunting - 1Jan 10th 2008, 10:26pm, rainy. The fourth day of my job hunting. What did I get today? An interview at a Korean-run language school But it is a actually a fucking joke. The school is run by a Korean couple. I was applying for the English instructor position. The wife looked at the education section on my resume, "hmmm, you are from China". "You did your Bachelor in China" After talking for a bit, she commented, oh you sound like you *are* (were) born here. Good. I said thank you. I was a bit happy. Compared to average ESL speakers, I think I'm good. But *native speaker* frds or immigrant frds who have been here longer than me can tell I'm real ESL, and I don't sound Canadian. The interview was short. She asked me 4 or 5 questions, and I think I gave a dumb answer to the one about salary expectation. I got to know that students going to the school are basically Korean. They are ESL, need help in Eng, especially Eng for science subjects and homework. Tonight, I got a call from the wife. Guess what she said, She asked me to teach Chinese on Saturdays. I was surprised, and asked again: so you would like me to teach Chinese rather than English? "Yes" It didn't hurt me extremely, becuz at least I was asked to teach something. I know I didn't have enough skills and experience for teaching ESL even though I have a got a fucking Master of Education. But I didn't say anything about teaching Chinese on my resume, not even one single experience of teaching Chinese. They asked me to teach Chinese. Isn't this a fucking joke? It hurts me, becuz it really is that when people know I'm not from here, they won't let me teach English. And further, I'm from China, then I should teach Chinese rather than English. I had heard a lot about this stupid thing before today. But hearing something does not give you the same effect as experiencing it. So, I guess I shouldn't waste any more time on looking into teaching ESL. It doesn't seem to work for me. Nobody wants me, an ESL speaker. I've agreed to teach Mandarin on Saturdays. It's actually super funny, all my Chinese frds know that my English is more fluent than Mandarin. And I'm gonna teach Mandarin. Let's see how long I can hold the position. Although I had this funny experience, I wasn't very upset until I talked to my Mom. I started complaining that she made me make a wrong decision. I shouldn't have taken this stupid master's program of teaching ESL. Becuz it wouldn't help me find a job in Vancouver. I should've transfered to another school to do a business degree. Complaining is stupid and useless, I even thought of more problems. I've spent money and time on getting the degree. If the education I pay lots of money for can't help me find a job, it'd be the worst and greatest waste of money and time on earth. It's so pathetic. Worse still, I'm in the middle of nowhere. With this stupid MEd, I can't get into PhD. I don't have much work experience, it's pretty hard to get into other fields. So what else can I do? It feels horrible when you realize that your education doesn't actually help you find a job. In reality, experience and skills are what people emphasize. who cares about your masters? 4 months and 20 days left. 10月21日 This time is differentIt's been quite a while since I wrote last time. I think I've been busy lol. It's actually an excuse. Compared with the undergrads or the real grads, I am basically just a partier. By real grads, I mean the normal students that you see on campus and are working hard on their research and stuff. Recently, I've realized that my role in Vancouver was not meant to study. This might sound really weird, but I guess it's true. I had really hard times when catching up with the academic work. I remember I was upset on Sundays before b/c I was alone and doing all the painful readings/writings. This semester is different, I'm in luck that I have only one course. Even though I have the so-called comps, I actually don't care about it. The most important difference I have found recently is that I've been feeling happy in Oct., feeling way better than before. Why? I'd say I've found a group of ppl that are super awesome and outgoing. In the previous three semesters, I spent a lot of time volunteering and working, and of course catching up with school. I realized that I didn't have many friends, especially a bunch of kids that you can go out with. Working too much could make you not have much of life. Life is kinda strange. You have a lot of bad times and also a lot of good times. But you never know when the good times come, and they come unexpectedly. That's probably why they are good. Oct. has been super fun, thxgiving potluck, Carole's thxgiving feast, Korean Hotpots, International movie night, Neptune Food Show, Vietnamese food, And tonight, there were 18 ppl exploring Indian cuisine with me. Having a bunch of friends with you is the best thing in the world. It really was a great time and I'm glad I've found these lovely ppl. I'm thankful of the mentorship program and thankful of the fact that this year's ppl are different and more active. I'm thankful of facebook as well. It's a detrimental thing to be honest, but it really gets me closer to other ppl. I like facebook XD It's getting cold in Oct. But I feel that I've gotten more used to the cold now than last year. I guess I've gotten more used to Vancouver and things are working out. I'm playing guitar again and feeling my passion for music again. I love the name of a song by Oasis "Keep the dream alive" Even though I still don't like the rain and I love warmth and sunshine, I sort of feel that now I like Vancouver more than before. 9月16日 After the parties...There were 3 parties in a row this weekend. It's kinda crazy. When the parties were over, today, I found no interest in my textbooks. I think I don't really have any mood for studying this sem. Especially this is the last one, partying hard seems to be the most important thing in the world. But, after the party, after the drinks, there's nothing much actually. That's that. We come back to the real life and the real life is still there. A bunch of work needs to be done, it needs to be done. You still need to read your books for class, you still need to do it. I went down to the richmond nite market finally. It's nothing new to me, except that there are Vietnamese, Japanese, Korean, of course Chinese food there. There was a German vendor selling "Supertex Shammy". My frds said it must feel nice b/c its like being back home to me. Well, nothing excited overall. But the food was really good. Thatz the biggest part. And at the nitemarkets in GZ, we don't seem to have food booths. Anyways, good to see the nitemarket. I went to two parties straight last nite. Czech beer is cool. There were so many ppl in Foggy Dew. There was a funny lil' story last nite: when I went by a woman, who looked older than me, she said "you are so cute". I guess its b/c I was shorter and my face was so red after drinking. I answered you are very cute as well. She was like do you wanna dance with me? I didn't really pay attention to the question, and just kept saying you are cute. Then, she kissed my cheek. Then, I left. I didn't know why I just left without thinking much. I should've danced with her. But most likely, she was drunk. There are many dramas that could happen in a pub b/c ppl are intoxicated. I get embarrassed each time I drink. My face gets red so easily, more than that, my eyes get really really red, no kidding, even if I haven't finished a glass. Seeing that, my frds are worried: are you ok marcus? your face and eyes are red!! I'm like, I am not drunk at all! I just get red so fucking easily. Drinking can get me embarrassed. LOL My recent meditation gives me an conclusion: there are two mandates/missions for human beings, 1 - find the job that you like and that likes you; 2 - find the one that you love and that loves you. Unfortunately, neither one have I got. 9月6日 A busy but awesome day!It was very busy but awesome day! I made pancakes for the first time today. SFSS free event: Pancake Breakfast was a really nice event, lots of fun! Making pancakes for about an hour was a bit tiring, and hot, but pretty cool. Stella was here for a few days doing her US visa stuff. Good to see her again. She's staying in a hostel. Gosh, 10bucks a nite, that hostel is aweful and scary. Saw a hostel for the first time too. Tonight, with honor and fun and joy, SFSS had a party at SFU President Michael Stevenson's house! Freaking sweet eh? I haven't met the president of GDUT in GZ, but here in Canada, I had a chance to party with SFU President, unbelievable! His house is so freaking nice and high-class! Crazy!! Unbelievable. The stupid paper is finally done, 17 pages.......T.T 9月4日 A message from Coach LinToday I heard from Coach Lin, that's really kool! I was laughing, a bit surprised but very glad. From: 林乐方 Subject: marcus你好 我回到国内一周了,由于有好多事情要做没能及时和你联系请见凉.感谢你的幽默和帮助,将来回国时要到北京来,我请你喝二锅头.祝你好运.林乐方. Re: marcus你好 Dear 林教练/大哥/神偷: 谢谢你在百忙中抽时间写我一信! marcus很高兴看到你的来信. 那两个星期跟你们玩得十分开心, 那不仅是中加交流, 也是我们南北方的交流, 呵呵. 感谢你传授我山东话, 也感谢你的幽默! 我去北京的话一定会找你们玩, 祝你工作顺利, 万事如意. Marcus 梁可立 i had a wonderful time with the funny coach and the Renmin team :) |
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